After running around the Golden Dolphin Diving Expo all day yesterday, and the center of Moscow when I needed a break. Plus mostly trying to keep myself busy so I didn't sit in sorrow most of the day thinking about my loss, springing the occasional leak, especially while talking to my family, I managed to really tire myself out. By the time my head hit the pillow last night I was fast away in dream land.

This morning/afternoon I opted to stay home from the diving expo. There are a few difference between the Golden Dolphin and Dema, first mostly everyone speaks Russian, second I hardly know anyone and third there are many more booths relating to spearfishing and freediving! However not being in need of any new gear or having anyone left to meet with, I become bored after a few hours and I would rather be a home reading a book. I find solitude to be quite comforting. I did have a few laughs, watching men telling their big, tough diving stories to other men! Even though I don't understand the language it is the traditional show down of testosterone and it makes me laugh.

So today I woke up at noon to turn down my ride to the show and began to meditate. When I'm tired I prefer to meditate while lying down and that is the perfect way to send me back into sleepy land. Around 2pm I woke up and decided it was time for some breath holds and then breakfast. Currently I am working on being very comfortable while holding my breath, trying to stay in a very relaxed state, not really pushing. This technique may decrease my performances for a while, but I think this choice will give me must more longevity in my career.

I finally arouse around 3pm to find an empty house, quite unusual here. I took advantage of the quiet and did some studying. I am trying to learn to speak Russian and on most days I feel quite overwhelmed at what seems to be an impossible task, but on other days I see how this venture is helping to improve my desire for knowledge and I find myself more interested in the English language. My hope is I'm waking up dark corners of my brain and this will eventually lead me to be comfortable with static breath holds.

Currently I am trying to motivate to exercise my quads, with a little bit of English tea and chocolate. Caffeine right now might not be the greatest idea, but I will find out for sure later.